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कुछ क्षण ऐसे भी आते हैं ! 10 May 2022

 कभी कभी घिर जाते हैं हम गहरे किसी दलदल में, फँस जाते हैं जिंदगी के चक्के किसी कीचड़ में, तब जिंदगी चलती भी है तो रेंगकर, लगता है सब रुका हुआ सा। बेहोशी में लगता है सब सही है, पता नहीं रहता अपने होने का भी, तब बेहोशी हमें पता नहीं लगने देती कि होश पूरा जा चुका है। ठीक भी है बेहोशी ना हो तो पता कैसे लगाइएगा की होश में रहना क्या होता है, विपरीत से ही दूसरे विपरीत को प्रकाश मिलता है अन्यथा महत्व क्या रह जायेगा किसी भी बात का फिर तो सही भी ना रहेगा गलत भी ना रहेगा सब शून्य रहेगा। बेहोशी भी रूकती नहीं हमेशा के लिए कभी आते हैं ऐसे क्षण भी जब एक दम से यूटूर्न मार जाती है आपकी नियति, आपको लगता है जैसे आँधी आयी कोई और उसने सब साफ कर दिया, बेहोशी गिर गयी धड़ाम से जमीन पर, आपसे अलग होकर। अभी आप देख पा रहे हो बाहर की चीजें साफ साफ, आपको दिख रहा है कि बेहोशी में जो कुछ चल रहा था वो मेरे भीतर कभी नही चला। जो भी था सब बाहर की बात थी, मैं तो बस भूल गया था खुद को बेहोशी में, ध्यान ना रहा था कि सब जो चल रहा था कोई स्वप्न था। खैर जो भी था सही था, जैसी प्रभु की इच्छा, जब मन किया ध्यान में डुबो दिया जब मन कि

Selfish or self care- part-3

A lot of boys and girls are waiting outside a small house after 10 min the door is opened and an old age man came outside the house and asked: "Are you guys waiting for 5-6pm batch ".All student say yes in a loud voice.

Actually, this is English coaching and today's new batch is going to start, Rohan was also there in the crowd with his 2-3 friends and now all of them enter in the small room which is being messy with the strength of 20 students even all are stranger to another one. You can better understand how coaching batch starts.

As we know very well boys count the girls and girls also want to know how many smart guys are in our batch Bytheway during this session a girl enters the room and asks to is this English batch?

Rohan answers - yes ( he get nervous when he tried to do interact with any girl that's why he said just yes )

She is damn pretty, height 5'2, very fair complexion eyes were sparkling like a star and trendy dress is enhancing her beauty 100% more.

"So all students pay attention to! Take out your notebooks and note it out some points " _ teacher speak up now all student keep silence and start writing on their notebooks but most of the boys were still staring her some of them were planning to interact with her in anyhow but Rohan is different is writing like losers, he is just trying to behave like he doesn't care about her actually he does but his shy nature stopping him to do any nonsense finally class gets overall are returning to their homes.

"Hey ...." Voice comes to Rohan's, he turns back and gets surprised and says "hello" she is again in Infront of him.

"May I know you?" she asks

"Sorry I don't remember  but your face seems known "

"Ummm what's your name ?" Confusingly she asks

"Hmm Rohan," he says in the nervous pitch

Oh my god! See I said so na , I know you my name is Nikita " she says (giggling )

"you Nikita Arora class_3rd A roll no.10, "Rohan said surprisingly

"Oh god! You haven't forgotten anything thank God " she says with proper expression

"Actually mine was roll no 12 so I still remember "Rohan reply back with a huge smile.

She laughs for a moment again. Rohan says " I thought that you moved on to another city with your parent "

"No yaar! I changed school only,  my dad wanted to take me there but I refused yar I love my grandma very much and I can't leave her alone "Nikita says with her serious face

"Oh I see," Rohan says

"OK yaar  I have to leave now cz I am getting late, " Nikita says

"Yeah sure bye " Rohan return back home.

The next day again. She comes to him after coaching and this process repeats, again and again, most of the time they discuss study and coaching, etc.

One day she comes to him and says "yaar Rohan can you please come there in the park on Sunday, I am very weak in maths so you will help me  "

"Sorry Nikki you can give your doubts on paper and I will give you solutions after that day but yaar I can't come there because I have a lot of work on Sunday," Rohan says with a sorry face

"Ummmm! Yaar you don't know about my condition if you won't help me then I am gonna fail in board exams please yaar help me "

Few seconds after Rohan says "okay I will try "

"Thank you yaar! thank you "she says with a lot of happiness like she has scored 80% on boards actually she knows that he is a brilliant boy and he can better help her to solve mathematics.

And now every Sunday they go to the park and do study there. Their life is passing around with time, now board exams are too close, both are fully involved in study and Nikita is comfortable with mathematics because maths is fav subject of Rohan even he always stand first in class, you won't believe most of the time teacher tells him that "Rohan would you like to solve this question on board " he says "yes"

And he solves those questions which haven't taught in the classroom even all students have to surprisingly copy his solutions from the board .

Now  Nikita wants to focus on other subjects that's why she tells "I am thinking that I should pay attention to other subjects so I will have to stay at home for self-study".

"As you wish !" Rohan says with sad face actually he wanted to show that he doesn't care if she is not coming but he was failed to change the facial expression and she easily reads his expression or she did not who knows

She answered "okay! Now I have to leave! Bye "

Rohan don't speak a single word even he turn back and move to the home, actually Rohan expected that she will read his face and will try to convince him to understand the problem but he was totally wrong. She just said bye, in my opinion, it was an addiction , that addiction which comes after caffeine tasting. Yes its the first time when a girl came to his life, and now he is an addict to that caffeine even he doesn't know! why?

A boy who always minds a gap from girls, is now an addict to the girl while they just had studied together. He is returning to his home with a lot of confusion, a boy who always solves the critical mathematical problems, is stuck in a mystery.

Finally, he arrives at home and tries to focus on study and does remember some motivational lines to switch his mind from her and finally his eyes get close automatically and goes to sleep.

Suddenly a loud, abusive voice breaks his dreams, and that voice takes him out from Dreamland and throws him in the hostel room. Actually, His roommate was saying that "oh bloody fucker! You are getting late for college it's 8:50 now "

And Rohan ran away to the bathroom ............................

To be continued.

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©Confused Thoughts 


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