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कुछ क्षण ऐसे भी आते हैं ! 10 May 2022

 कभी कभी घिर जाते हैं हम गहरे किसी दलदल में, फँस जाते हैं जिंदगी के चक्के किसी कीचड़ में, तब जिंदगी चलती भी है तो रेंगकर, लगता है सब रुका हुआ सा। बेहोशी में लगता है सब सही है, पता नहीं रहता अपने होने का भी, तब बेहोशी हमें पता नहीं लगने देती कि होश पूरा जा चुका है। ठीक भी है बेहोशी ना हो तो पता कैसे लगाइएगा की होश में रहना क्या होता है, विपरीत से ही दूसरे विपरीत को प्रकाश मिलता है अन्यथा महत्व क्या रह जायेगा किसी भी बात का फिर तो सही भी ना रहेगा गलत भी ना रहेगा सब शून्य रहेगा। बेहोशी भी रूकती नहीं हमेशा के लिए कभी आते हैं ऐसे क्षण भी जब एक दम से यूटूर्न मार जाती है आपकी नियति, आपको लगता है जैसे आँधी आयी कोई और उसने सब साफ कर दिया, बेहोशी गिर गयी धड़ाम से जमीन पर, आपसे अलग होकर। अभी आप देख पा रहे हो बाहर की चीजें साफ साफ, आपको दिख रहा है कि बेहोशी में जो कुछ चल रहा था वो मेरे भीतर कभी नही चला। जो भी था सब बाहर की बात थी, मैं तो बस भूल गया था खुद को बेहोशी में, ध्यान ना रहा था कि सब जो चल रहा था कोई स्वप्न था। खैर जो भी था सही था, जैसी प्रभु की इच्छा, जब मन किया ध्यान में डुबो दिया जब मन कि

Dear crush

​Sometimes a question comes to my mind , I should express my feelings to my crush but I can't so today m gonna confess with all strangers (don't think I am sick lover or etc :) ) 


Dear crush, 

The day when I saw you first time was best day of my life , first day of my college and I was going to attend morning lecture ,I was much nurvous because I have crowd fear.i was moving out in porch that time at the corner of class room you were coming in my direction , firstly I did not pay attention but when you came next to me , I looked at you avidly .( All we know it's human nature) but we crossed each other in a moment . But a image was still swimming into my eyes , two flickering eyes and beautiful face cut is still walking around in my mind believe me I really did not notice what dress you put up , what was the color of dress because of your magical eyes I was unable to think anything . But I thought it is just dream and I went to classroom , day spent well in class because of you , it will be exaggeration :) . 

Another day I saw you at library , I had no idea that I will meet you again but it was my luck , I was searching books from this shelf to other and  a book heave into view , quickly I picked up , suddenly I paid attention to shelf , I was shocked because you were there infront of me and I was watching you from the small blank space of shelf , for a moment I thought it is my misconception but 2-3 second later I felt and said to me 

"yes it is true , oh god she will think I am staring her  or she will think I am flippant " 

but it was my doubt actually she were looking for book in that shelf and she was not able to watch me because that blank space was too small . Thank God but my heart was forcing me and telling that

"go man ! She is damn pretty go and watch her one more time , you should 

 her "

suddenly a voice came to my ears. 

"oh you bloody flippant ! Are you out of mind , why are you staring innocent girl if she is not your cup of tea "

this voice came from my mind and my legs wanted to say something , I tried to understand their voice . 

"Please run away from here I am feeling tired and I can't move there please let me leave from here " 

so I decided to move for my legs .

One day you were gossiping with your friends at college gate and i was entering  again I found you and I noticed that you were laughing much , I had not reason to stop there so I moved into college , flash back were playing in my mind , smile was increasing your beauty 100 times more , for a moment my heart told me that 

"my god please save me , I can't watch " 

, my mind was still opposing my heart and told me 

" man ! Control on your self ! If you watch her continuously , you will be get addicted so try to ignore her".

At lunch time I was walking around in canteen area with friends and you were sitting there with your male friend , honestly I felt too much jealous this Time I don't know why ?  He was cuddling you , I felt sad not only sad it was heart broken 

That time I told to my heart

" oh gosh! She already have bf ".


 "may be he is her best friend " 

voice came from my heart.

  I told to heart- 

 " then why he is cuddling like bf , also treating her like baby , no man you again trying to misguide me now i will never listen to your voice " 

. Heart was confused and mind spoke quickly

 "look how much stupid you are , I was refusing you every time but you were ignoring my voice and now look at you , you are hurting your self , did you really think? that she will talk to you ? Are you a star or famous figure ? Why you did think that she will be mine ? Itold that please control your emotions but you always ignore me


I was silent for a moment and I try to defend my self  and told to mind 


" I knew that but I thought positively that she is single , you please stop scolding me I am not a criminal I am a human and it's human nature , yes i admit that I attracted because of her eyes but you tell me , how many times ? I have done this mistake . Dude now why you are speechless reply to me ?_  you know very well, it was my first time otherwise I never notice any girl ,how can you say that I am not a star , yes I am not a star or famous figure of college but I can treat her like a feminist forever , sorry it is my wish only now it's impossible "

Mind was speechless , heart comes between fight and spoke to me  

"Man be positive ! At least you should try one time , how can you be sure that she is committed  , man! you can't accept your defeat easily ,    you thought so much about her then now why are you being negative " 

I replied to heart

 " I agree with you that i m not trying to propose her but you tell me if I go to her then what will I speak to her ? I never meet also m stranger then how can I be positive . You are just flattering , I know she will not accept also she can be rude with me , god knows !" 

Heart kept silent and mind was totally disturbed . I moved to classroom . . ...

Thanks for reading my story 

- Confused Thoughts 


  1. Thanks alot ! It means a lot if someone read our complete blog 😊

  2. Awwwe. I know its a scary situation to be in liking someone and wanting to talk to them

  3. Yes , I also nurvous when i try to communicate with stranger !
    But I tried to draw that situation by words ! 😊
    Thanks you

  4. I get nervous when speaking to strangers an outsiders as well :) At least you know you aren't alone :)

  5. You made this post so interesting by having a Dialogue between Your Heart and Your Mind. Absolutely brilliant concept.
    Today's World - Very hard to get a Guy or Girl, for who, You will be "The First". These stories start from school life. Hope it doesn't go down to Kindergarden level !!!!!!!!

  6. Did you watch (not read) my Post on Funny Babies Memes ? You pick the Funniest Pic and I'll tell you something about your personality.

  7. One sided be like... Have more experience & have More time to love other
    Actually its better... because here we feel every lil happiness. 👌

  8. Right ! No expectations no tension 😂

  9. Thank you so much! It means alot to me

  10. My emotions were taken by the dialogue, when you saw she was with another, I felt heartbroken. It's not an easy life for a sentimentalist like myself. #sadness

  11. Thank you so much for reading and understanding my thoughts


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